So far... This vacation has SUCKED!!!!!!

    Thanksgiving started out fairly nice. My mom was wearing a pretty dress and forced me into one, I did my make up. I was bored so I let my sister curl my hair as an early birthday present. So I went with my mom, step-dad, and two little brothers to my step-dad's mom's house. Which was fun, I like seeing my uncles again. My aunts on the other hand accidently made me feel like shit! I had on make up, and I was wearing a sparkley silver dress. Well almost every one of my aunts said something like "so... do you have a hot date tonight?" I almost cried every time I heard that!! No you sons of bitches I did not have a hot date! My boyfriend was working from eight a.m. until four p.m. so I didn't get to talk to him in the morning and since my grandma picked me up at about three I didn't get to talk to him later either!! And THEN because my dad has such a stick up his ass I don't get to talk to the love of my life for the entire time I'm up here!!!!! So, No, I did not have a hot date and will not for my entire vacation!!!!!! Ugh!!! I know thanksgiving was supposed to be about "giving thanks" but how can I when I have almost nothing to be grateful for!!! Well... that's not true at all, in this year I've gotten closer to my mom so we actually get along now, I've learned there's a point where people fuck up so much you don't forgive them anymore, I've learned to tell who are my real friends, my family isn't doing as bad as others in the middle of this economic crisit, and most of all I should be grateful that I was able to meet the love of my life this last year! But on that exact day, I didn't feel very grateful. I'm happy to visit my grandma, but I'm so sick of my dad!! Does he not remember what it was like to be a teenager in love! Oh wait he was to busy fucking up his life with drugs no wonder he doesn't fucking know!!!

    Well aside from the fact I'm in the middle of manic depression right now, I've actually been having some fun. Like today I went with my grandma to a little Christmas swapmeet type of thing. Then I went off-roadding with my dad and I got to drive, then my dad got bored so we decided to start going through a few of the mines that are safe up here. Holy damn is it dark inside of mines!!!!!! The stupid idiot turned off the flashlight to scare me, and I couldn't even see my hand a cenimeter from my face!!!! It was so damn dark in there!!! It freaked me out, but it was still pretty damn cool. I figured out that's where we get the whole "light at the end of the tunnel" saying. because it's so damn dark in mines, all you can see is the light at the end of the tunnel, and frankly I thought it was cool and all but I was SO happy to get out of there! xD

    I'm not going to say anything about yesterday because I was in such a bad mood over not being with Dylan that I didn't really appreciate any of it! I might talk about it tomorrow because I'm going to try to call him, and that will definitely calm me down if nothing else.

    I'm too tired to think today, so I'll write down anything interesting that happens that I remember so I can post tomorrow. (hopefully)  See you guys tomorrow!!! (hopefully)